Do you know what you want? When did you know that you wanted ‘that’? Today’s Full Moon in Gemini is loaded with celestial current so we can finish cleaning out trauma debris and scars that keep us from connection. Our inability to connect is an inside job first. When you didn’t get what you wanted as a child, what did that mean to you? Have you checked on the story you tell yourself about those losses? Time to find out where those old half truths are still hiding. They may color decisions more than you know, and that doesn’t help.
Because now is a good time to clean up and clear our ill-fitting ways of seeing yourself in relationships to, well…, everything. This Full Moon has the Sun conjunct the point of the Galactic Center. If you don’t know what that is, it’s a lot to explain but in astronomy there is a place in the constellation of Sagittarius that is a super massive black hole that is ‘The Great Attractor’, drawing everything to it. What that means for us is we have the ability now to attract in what we want and need (not always the same thing, right) to build from the collapse of the old world. You are a magnet and how you work with that matters, a lot.
Why does that matter? Because particularly this month we meet that fork in the road again. You can double down on what you want from the past without examining it, which is likely to meet obstacles and resistance. That resistance can get heated. Or you can use those challenges to re examine what you want. Do those desires still fit you? Notice what. you attract! Fear makes us suit up and ride in for battle. When what is required right now is more of a sorting process. Like triage, sort through what you desire. What do you want no matter the obstacles (and what will having that give you). What don’t you want, no matter how easily it is achieved? Finally, what are those confusing choices hanging out there. Spend quality time on middle ground as you wrap up the year.
It also matters to resize and redraw what the outline of those desires looks like now. Include your mind, body, heart and Spirit in the picture. I promise you even the challenges you face are part of upgrading your view of YOU. Pay attention to where those delays or reroutes pop up feelings of unworthiness or despair. Fear keeps us focused on contraction instead of expansion. And this Full Moon and even this month is packed with expansion. A chick pecking free of a shell doesn’t waste time imagining the world is out to get it with a trap. It would asphyxiate while it did. Tackle those resistant spots with concentrated attention. Doubt your doubts, please don’t project your fears onto others and pick battles. Nobody wins those this month, it just distracts you from expansion.
We are here to learn another way to work with resistance. Instead of battling something or someone, expand its opposite. Venus is retrograde this next Moon cycle so wherever harmony is disrupted gives you a chance to add balance in and discover something about your power. Remove your attention from what is strident and give your energy to what can and does move you towards what you desire. It’s emotional Aikido where you learn not to engage in battle but to redirect it. When you master this, you are head of the line for creative genius. Because with all the attraction power each person has now, some of what you draw to you won’t match. You don’t need to fear that, you want to learn to dance with it. This end of the year is practice for a six month cycle of this mastery brought by the eclipse.
The cards and the Stars will help. You can also get a twelve month Year Ahead Reading with Lisa to go month by month for you in 2022. This half hour, recorded call can help guide you through the creative upside and shadow contraction dance. Get yours here.
I look forward to creating a Year to remember with you. Thank you and Happy Holidays to all. Enjoy the Magic Season,
Lisa Greenfield
December 18th full moon gemini five of cups
There is opportunity in loss when this Five shows up. Five is the number of creativity and so is the suit of cups. Heartfelt creativity is what we need. Venus is dancing with the Planet of Deep Transformation through this retrograde cycle. Anything superficial will not stand the fires of change. What does make it through is purified through the heat and baked into something long lasting. A ritual is a good way to honor what ends and all it gave you. Create your own version of it. It’s important to give your feelings an honored space in life. They are what add color and vibrancy.
Too often fear of the unwelcome emotions has us armored up and resistant. With Jupiter in harmony with this Full Moon it gives you fresh perspective to see something other than defensive needs. Instead you can receive a flood of optimism around ways to rework what you want and how to go about getting it. The invitation to create rather than protect is powerful. Will you answer it? When you meet resistance, how can you dance with it and let it teach you more about who you are and how to expand how to achieve what you wish. The celestial soup of support helps get you to the Truth of you. The covers come off those spots you hid the truth from yourself. Don’t worry, you are more than enough. The big Truth of you can’t stay hidden any longer.
But if you keep fighting old battles, trying to resurrect the past or protect yourself from old enemies, you miss the flow forward into creative mastery. Keep sorting through what feeds your soul, not your fears. Stand up to those shadows with the light that knows you are enough, you can do this and even better, you can enjoy doing this! This is foundational work so it takes time and care. Give that to yourself or get a good look at why you resist giving yourself this time. Habit is safe and survivable and it will be more and more uncomfortable. You don’t fit in those old spaces anymore. Honor what is leaving you and give yourself space to welcome what is coming in to being. If you find yourself struggling, breathe. Then do it again. Life has so much to offer you.
December 19th Seven of wands
Tread lightly today, my friend. Tread lightly. You may feel wounded, misunderstood if you rush through the day. This seven is often a caution against battle. You are on higher ground than you may think. You are not helpless or hopeless. Any story that sees. you that way is a good one to weed out. When you choose to spend your time there, adjusting that incorrect view of you and your resources, you win. When you battle others you are off balance and it won’t give you the outcome you wish for anyway. No one wins a battle today. The cost will be greater than the return so go within.
Adjust your view of you and let your mind come up with clever ways to see things with fresh, kinder, optimistic eyes. You can do it. Venus goes retrograde today and crosses the hell realm of Pluto three times before leaving Capricorn. You can’t fight your way to a better world. Time to find out how you can contribute to a world where it is no longer a zero sum game. Winners and losers are the old way of thinking. This Venus cycle closes what began in December of 2013, peaked in 2017 and finishes now. What and where can you create new options that means everyone wins something? Let that be your big challenge this Venus cycle.
december 20th five of swords
Oh it’s a good day to doubt your doubts and find your inner hero! This Five means negative thinking. What a gift to see where you sell yourself short and misjudge both you and others. Oh does it help to stop that long enough for other insight to work its way into the picture. Stay with it because by evening you get some real breakthroughs. Even little glimpses can pay off big over time. Anger consolidates us and helps us stand up for ourselves or another. When we misuse it we box ourselves in with hard boundaries. The goal is firm yet flexible edges that can adjust as circumstances warrant. Feel your way.
december 21st ace of swords winter solstice
If your safety depends on circumstances outside of you, you never truly feel secure. This solstice ushers in a clarity that your ‘home’ is within you. Resilience is the ability to adapt to changing landscapes with trust in your ability to create with the ingredients at hand. Fear will want to fixate on what you don’t have or don’t want. That is contraction energy. Give yourself a moment to absorb what may be lacking and then move on to what you have to work with now.
The old adage, ‘necessity is the mother of invention’ is at play here. Mankind has been at its best when difficult circumstances forced us to do better than we knew we could do. This Ace helps cut away where you lack confidence in your ability to rise to any occasion. Make clean cuts in self doubt. This winter season is excellent to cut away dead wood and prepare for what will bloom in Spring.
December 22nd ten of pentacles
We approach the final Saturn/Uranus square tomorrow that has been shaking things up globally this year. Ten of Pentacles is the Karma card. We reap what we sow. Many people view that with fear that difficult things that happen are somehow punishment for bad deeds. Let’s redo that take, shall we? Difficulties are not bad karma, not at all. They are life. They are opportunities to deepen our commitments, connections, creativity and decision making.
Karma is when you operate from greed that takes more than it needs then at some point you will have to balance the scales. This Ten takes your understanding up to a new level. Energy is the flavor of your actions. If the flavor is greed or selfishness, the outcome won’t go down well for you or anyone else. Investigate where you’ve been feeding yourself results that don’t taste good and didn’t realize you could change the recipe with your participation. How you receive anything matters. If someone serves up something with less than appealing frequency, then add your own seasoning or adjust the temperature. Get inspired and see what happens.
december 23rd six of pentacles
Today’s Six is also a karma card, following yesterday’s signal for the same. This one calls for an internal reflection of what you put out to others. There can be an anxious feeling which is why a pause to check in is so helpful. The Moon opposes Saturn. This means time matters. What you give your time to matters and right now you need to integrate where or how things delayed or denied can benefit you. In some instances you are over giving. In others you are asking more than you need. This doesn’t apply to everything but can be quite a handy review to do on a regular basis. Venus retrograde means harmony is the issue and lack of harmony often has imbalance or inequity at the core.
Saturn also squares Uranus for the third and final close contact before separating for another long cycle. Saturn is in the superior position but Uranus will not settle for a quick dismissal. We need to reckon between what is good for the whole and what benefits the individual. This matter will be a long time unfolding. You play a part in it and that requires an eye towards equitable exchange. Not equal, but equitable. Help contribute a more balanced approach to meeting your needs but not at the expense of all those around you. Creativity will add much, find yours.
Eris is the truth teller and won’t let the parts and people who have been shorted in the today’s world go without. As an active part of this Moon and eclipse cycle, she shows up to bring the ignored or unseen players to the table. That goes for the parts of you that want space in your life as well. You don’t have to give the neglected parts of you the steering wheel, but do give them a chance to be heard. Trust me they have shown up to others, even if you didn’t see them yourselves.
december 24th The moon christmas eve
You must manage your self talk today, no kidding. There are challenging aspects galore to highlight the places and spaces that require growth. I saw a meme that said ‘growth is when you stop thinking things will improve when others change’. Self care, self talk, self management is the whole story today. It is also the greatest gift you can give yourself. When you allow yourself to spill over or shut down over another who ‘misbehaves’, you are forever at the mercy of the outside emotional storm.
Firm, flexible boundaries means you can match your emotions to the moment appropriately, without dragging in the past or projecting out to the future. Go for that. Don’t worry about the learning curve angle, just get onto it’s bend. Firm and flexible, ask for what you want or need without expecting them to meet it. The Universe has more than one way to answer your needs. Abundance is know what you want and need asking for it and giving the Universe a chance to meet you there in good time. Knowing that is a gift that will keep on giving.
december 25th the sun
Ah, after the Moon yesterday now comes the Sun. This celestial partnership reminds us that dark is followed by light. Then they repeat the dance. Difficulties bring resolution. The unfolding world then brings more challenge. This is life. To fixate on one at the expense of the other serves no good purpose. There is an invitation to accept life as you find it and shape what is offered up. Tailor what you discover to better suit you and allow others the same freedom. Manipulation and power struggles won’t lead to a sustainable outcome you want to live with anyway. Short term gains won’t feel good and cost too much now.
The Sun and Moon together can also highlight illness so please do be mindful of your health. Over indulgence is sugar and starch lowers your immune system and these are not good times to be in a weakened state. No politics or conspiracy discussion please. This is a common sense approach to good health. With Venus retrograde touching Pluto, over indulgence carries a price. Why not be mindful and take good care of you. Enjoy in good measure. Your body will thank you.
december 26th the star
The morning brings more ease and insight after a bumpy couple of days. Time to integrate what you’ve learned about YOU. If you find yourself on a treadmill of what you wish had been different, why not step off. Let everything, truly everything benefit you. For those wins that still feel elusive, give them a positive box to sit in and put them on the shelf. In time they will show you how they contribute to your well being.
Meanwhile this Star is always the promise that staying grounded while dreaming big can make your wishes come true. The feet on the ground comes with understanding yourself. While the whole puzzle may not be in view yet, you’ve got enough to map the corners and some borders. It’s worth your time to do a little reflecting. You do have the attractor factor working so the more you fine tune what you desire and what those desires mean to you, the better the outcome.
december 27th six of wands
Small victories matter. Partnership of every kind is a running theme with Venus Retrograde. How you dance with life itself is up for improvements. Where do those unloved or unwanted bits of you need your attention. Are you willing to let them be seen without judgement? We all have a selfish impulse or two. What matters more is whether you use your intellect to rationalize getting your way over being inspired to improve things for both sides. That takes vulnerability and risk. If you can’t voice what you want without holding another hostage to your expectations they meet it, you box yourself in on what’s possible. Same is true where you’ve been held hostage to your loved ones expectations and seethe with hurt or resentment.
Time to climb out of that box and see what else waits for you. This is the second six in the Moon Cycle. Two sixes together mean love and commitment. Those two together forge bonds that can outlast time. When you love something or someone enough to face the hardships together as a team, learn from your mistakes and lift each other up, it becomes fairly indestructible. And you get there one victory at a time. Manage your internal self talk, your expectations and your timeline. Sometimes what you judge as a failure is merely a pause on the road to success.
december 28th High priestess
On that road to success, if you aren’t careful you may burn down relationship bridges today instead of making important internal adjustments. Today is a day where you can project your story on to others and then want them to pay. Your words, your actions, your feelings are for YOU to take care of gently. Kindness goes a long way too. You can excavate some deep old wounds to get to views that aren’t true anymore. They need a burial. By all means, give those stories a good sending off. The protected you until you outgrew them. Hint, you have outgrown them. The intuitive knowing will help you run your hands over the parts of your heart and mind that hurt. Kiss them tenderly and let go of the wounding stories.
december 29th the devil
Today, truth comes to light today and you are strong enough to handle it. And any betrayal starts with self betrayal. Where did you turn a blind eye to what is around you because you didn’t want to see what actually is there? We storm and accuse and feel victimized by the liars. What is needed is due diligence. Sometimes we believe out of innocence, some times out of ignorance. Give yourself a break when you simply didn’t know any better and understand that now you know. You can and will handle it. Life and love can disappoint.
Ignorance is a place to dig in and look for gold. Where were you afraid to look at how you may have tried to push something forward instead of honestly seeing it wasn’t there without you doing more than your share. Sometimes it is because of mismatched timelines. Other times it is because of mismatched desires. You wanted it more so you did more. Time to put some healthy checks and balances in to be sure you choose the effort and match it to the situation. This allows you to better understand where there is a timing issue and where it may be more seriously out of balance than that. Manage your temper, your tone and your attitude. That is true empowerment.
december 30th two of wands
This far sighted Two helps to spark new connections and possibilities in your ongoing self discovery odyssey. The thing to remember is that shared ideas need time to sprout. By all means enjoy the sparks and let yourself get excited over possibilities. Just don’t let the heat turn up on each other. Differences can highlight places to learn what matters and why. Contrast and even disagreement can flesh out bigger territory to cover between the two people with shared ideas. The best views of the New York skyline are on the opposite river bank. Let the contrast inform you, not enrage you. If it does make you mad, get curious and busy excavating your inner landscape first.
December 31st lovers new year’s eve
The Lovers card highlights choices. Sometimes a choice between people, or it may be to choose between virtue and vice. In this case, it may even help to redefine what you consider vice. Webster’s dictionary calls it a moral failing. I ask you, what are your morals and are you living up to your own standards. As you wrap up the year and prepare for the next integrity is a good inventory to take. If you believe it, are you living it and if you aren’t do you really believe it anymore? If not, then you may want to leave it behind in the past and start with a fresh take on what you value, what is true to you and what you can and will do about living authentically. Now that’s a good way to wrap up the year.
January 1st 2022 eight of swords happy new year
The downside of this eight is you cannot ignore your trauma wounds, even though you want to start the year with a fresh slate. The good news is that by honoring that trauma you can bring it along in a way that offers wisdom rather than defensiveness. This card is a reminder we can step out of the trauma loop when we remember where we are now. We are not in the past. The only way to keep reliving it is to insist on seeing everything through those trauma goggles. When you catch yourself doing that, step away from that view. Ask your mind to gather evidence of all you learned due to those old conflicts. See how resilient and strong you can be.
Happiness doesn’t come from a lack of difficulty or pain. It comes from engaging with and enjoying life as the bowl big enough to hold those painful moments in it. Like a grain of sand in an oyster, you can turn your pain into something beautiful. Each time you recall a difficult or dark memory, be grateful for strength or courage or support or resilience. Find something or someone that helped move you through it. You are much more than your worst moments. Assemble a bigger picture of you and let that you walk into the New Year with confidence. There are greater connections waiting. Ones where you can be yourself.
Wishing you a very Happy 2022…
